Police, parties, & toes

I hosted a Pampered Chef party this afternoon as I do every year. It was nice to see some friends. I am so exhausted before everyone came, desperately tired. This evening I was dragging my feet literally of course and our industrial floor fan jumped out at me, doing in two toes.

My 2 hours of sleep a night aren't doing so well for me right now. They're jam-packed with back-to-back nightmares, typical for the couple months following whenever we lose an officer.

I'm so tired I'm sitting here crying but I dread sleep.

Pain as an understatement. DD's sleep study #2.

It's been a horrid night. I had a Chiari headache this morning but thought I'd be able to get it under control. Nicole came over so we could go across the street for our neighbor's Pampered Chef party at 1. I took a few meds and they kicked in quickly. Within about 90 minutes it had rebounded pretty badly.

I went home and reclined for about 30 minutes. I got up suddenly and crawled into bed. I didn't realize I never said anything to my husband, kids, or J until DH came in to see what happened. Next thing I knew, a few hours had gone by. I came out to the recliner again being beaten with a sledgehammer, needing to focus on my speech to get my words out right. I hit OxyContin and after an hour there was still no effect so I added Zanaflex. I can feel a little bit of warmth and tingling from the combination right now, a slight bit of relief but good grief. Getting hit with a sledgehammer would be a good distraction about now.

Distractions. That's what I've been trying to do. Distract myself.

My 5 year old's second sleep study to determine how to get her oxygen levels under control is set for the night of October 3rd. I'm so glad we're finally getting close for some relief for her after all these years. We also had her 504 plan worked on at school with the teacher, behavior specialist, and school principal. It went really well and hopefully she'll have a much better second quarter now that the first one is wrapping up.

Here's to the hope that Sunday will be a much brighter day than today.